The Cold Heart

The night is dark
Darker than I have ever seen
I cannot see the moon or the stars
But this night is given a mark
The same I am always giving
As if leaving scars

I look to the sky
But why?
What is there to see
What is there to find
In the blank infinity?
'Tis like I close my eyes
And see my thoughts

The thoughts are all about me
My choices, my actions
How I wish to run over the hills and far away
But also my fear to consign to oblivion
For so long, I have looked up
With eyes of sorrow and longing
Questioning why I am here

Now my feeling is brought upon the land
But still, here I stand
As the tears of beyond fall on me
How I love the feeling of these drops
Tapping and breaking
Like seeing the lives that have come and gone
This is me, and there is nothing wrong
But I can feel the rain wanting to fall
From my eyes
As much as I wish to sing
The only sound coming from me, is a whimper
My "Hello" to the other side
Is merely a whisper
I am lost with the blue
Within my heart, from which
I can never go back

I fail to keep it inside
There is nothing to deny
Like the eternal battle of fire and ice
I release the rain that I create
Like blooding when tearing the tourniquet
For I have reached the last crusade
I sing an unhateable song of myself
Somber as the sound making the song
I bare my beauty of the beast

I know now how to feel
When I am not where I belong
My only friend is the cold rain
I care no more
Who hears my cries
Echoing in the night
Leave me...